Wed. morning at a service for the Feast of the Transfiguration, I was struck by the idea that the transfiguration was an ordination or commissioning of Jesus into his full-fledged ministry. My thought was that I want to be commissioned as a caregiver.
I'm not ready yet; I'm not over "I don't want to do this." But when I am, I wish for a ritual by which my taking on this new role in life would be recognized. It does feel to me like becoming a different person and I want to mark that. It is certainly as big a change in who I am as marriage was.
Most of all I want something that will make me more able to feel that God is with me.