being left behind

I realize as a child I felt I had to keep up with the grownups in order to be accepted. But remembering going with my great aunt on dog walks, I remember the fear of being left behind, not the physical feelings of trying to keep up. It has struck me that the fears I used to have about losing weight were fears about how other people would react to me. I haven't actually gotten much reaction from other people, but I'm amazed by my own body. I think what I need to try to do is get out of my head, the fears that grow out of other people's reactions, and pay attention to my body. The Clemson Triathlon starts at 8 am tomorrow, May 14.