This is my last weekend at home for about a month. Our son is home from boarding school for a long weekend, but he mostly wants to veg out (play on the internet). When my husband was away for a week I had a chance to get into the flow of my time being my own. And I'm realizing I can do that even when I'm not alone, my life is different than when we had small kids. (Particularly when it is my husband's week to cook.)
So after a lovely bike ride with some friends this morning, I've been working through some piles of my stuff in the bedroom. But I've been working for five or ten minutes, then reading blogs for a while, then working on other projects (including my son's laundry). It isn't efficient but it is nice not to feel pressed, to work only as long as I feel like. I've gotten some things done that I've avoided for a long time.
But what should I do with this??
It is a costume I made for a ritual I did probably about 8 years ago (I wore bike shorts underneath). That ritual was an important first step in coming to accept my body. If I hadn't done that work (and followed up with a movement therapist for a couple of years) I wouldn't have been able to transform myself when I was diagnosed with diabetes and become an athlete.
I don't have any pictures of the ritual--I have the costume and a long scarf I made (five 3x3 ft. thin silk scarves sewed in a line into a rainbow). I suppose the scarf is enough to remember it by but it is hard to let go of the costume.