discouraged

I told my massage therapist that I had been thinking it was time to settle down and see John's situation as likely to be fairly stable for a while, get myself out of crisis mode. And then having to miss my class yesterday to take John to the doctor felt like crisis mode again. The massage therapist said I will need to be able to rapidly switch back and forth between chronic mode and crisis mode. I said I have a hard time with that kind of transition. He said I will get good at it. Sigh. I don't want to get good at it!