different

John says he just feels different, his body feels different than a year ago. I asked about carrying things up the stairs and he said that there were things he couldn't do helping our daughter move out of her room yesterday that he would have been able to do six months ago. It makes me sad. He is determined to make the most of his situation so he doesn't admit to grief. I am glad he is not depressed, but it is lonely to be mourning alone.